This blog is literally just about me. I don’t do tutorials, or life-hacks. Pictures will be rare, but memes will be included regularly. My grammar will not be perfect, but my spelling will be. If you can’t relate to my posts, that’s okay, and if you do, I’m sorry. I wish I couldn’t relate to me sometimes. Here is mostly a space for me to come to terms with my own shit. Publicly. Journaling is just not fucking doing it for me. At times these posts are going to make me sound completely self-absorbed, but with my brain the way it is, that changes often. I generally have obsessive tendencies so although my focus shifts often, it generally lasers in for a good while in one place. Bouncing around is more my specialty though.
Like right now for example, I don’t even know what the hell is going on in my life. Being alone is fucking terrifying and is a huge struggle for me every day. Which is why I have shuffled quickly from one job to another, one friend group to another, and one toxic relationship to another. Just to be clear, the common toxic denominator there was actually insecurities and general pendejadas (which is basically Spanish for stupid shit.) Being bilingual is supposed to be an asset by the way, like a skill that’s admired. For me it basically means I can use self-deprecating humor in two languages. I didn’t mean for this post to become self-deprecating, actually, but we can bounce back. Basically this post is like a general trigger-warning/descriptive explanation of what this website even is. Which is me, ranting and publicly chronicling my journey of existence. I almost said, journey to self-acceptance. That’s kind of a high bar. Right now I think I will shoot for continued existence. Acceptance can come later. So, read on if you dare.
In this post I am going to include a gratitude exercise. Apparently research has shown that people who do these exercises for 14 days are generally happier and have less burnout and depression. It can’t hurt right? Try this with me.
First, we are going to make a list of 3 things we are grateful for right now.
Here’s my list: My parents (they live with me and I’m grateful to have them here), my pets (I have 3 dogs and 2 cats), and hot water (not everyone has that).
Next we are going to list 3 good things we did today.
Here is what I did: I took a shower (thanks to the hot water), I worked for a couple of hours, and I ate a good breakfast (I ate cereal the rest of the day, but I did make a real breakfast.)
I’ll try to do that again for 14 days. They probably will not be consecutive days. They will still count. My mantra/motto for this year is “Good enough.” We are shooting for progress here, and not perfection. If you want to do this with me, or not, feel free to comment about it.
Hope you are doing alright in this moment, wherever or whenever you are. Try to give yourself some grace.
Love, Me, Katie Lee
Gratitude exercise from Therapy in a Nutshell
https://youtu.be/A07TCTc2ho0